As I was driving home from an old friend's house on Friday night, I got to thinking - as I do when it is just me in the car and no one else!(as exceptionally rare occasion) I was thinking about where I was at in life, what I stood for, what my likes and dislikes are, what my hobbies were, basically asking myself who I was. After all of that thinking I realised that if I wanted to know the answer to these questions I would have to ask someone else (actually a few someone elses).
I had heard about women who seem to lose their identity after becoming a mother (mostly those who were stay at home mums) and I thought that this would never happen to me... well it has - actually I can't blame becoming a wife and a mother on this - it is just me. I guess I have just floated through life (not always so easily as it sounds) just being the person I thought others wanted me to be. I mean, I don't change who I am around others, at the core I am me, but I guess I have looked at what others like and what I think makes them attractive (not just in looks but personality etc) and have picked up the things that I think could be me and added them to my little "me" file.
OK let me give you some examples, I once decided I wanted to surf, because alot of friends were good at it and I just wanted to see if I was too, and I started to love it. Also, I started listening to Brit Pop music years ago because I knew a guy who was into it and I decided I would start liking it too - which I really did in the end and still do! Is it just me who does this or does everyone out there try and "invent" themselves to a degree or are some people sooo cool that they don't have to?
I enjoy creativity, both from myself and others, although, I am not great at sewing, knitting, crafting, painting, drawing etc I do enjoy giving all these things a go... I guess I just wish I had a "thing". You know, the kind of thing that when people think of you, they think of your "thing". Example - my two closest friends, one is a great dancer and singer and the other a great at sewing and cooking! 4 things which I looooove but aren't great at any of them... maybe I should take lessons...
your thoughts????
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Debbs, life is discovery! We need to try things out to see what we like, and we discover these ideas from our family, friends (and bloggers)! I don't think it's bad! It's great to be inspired by people.
Also, you might not have honed your skills as a singer, sewer, cook... but the fact that you want to grow in character and in personality, is one of your great skills! You are fun and make people laugh. You have great people/relational skills (and 'child' skills too). You encourage others. You started a bookclub which has been an AWESOME blessing to me. And you can SOO dance 'the britpop'!
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