Where it's at...

I know, I know, once again you all have been left high and dry with hardly a word from me here in the past few weeks. You deserve an update at the very least, but really not much has happened... on the outer anyway.

Since Asher's birthday (see previous post), I have seen my parents in law come and go, a trip to Alma Park Zoo, a church retreat (fantastic it was!), a sick hubby, tears from my boy at kindy and an almost fully erected pool fence. Ok, so that is what has happened around here, but as I said not much on the outer...

On the inside, the past few weeks have seen me questioning God about: the difficult time I had when Asher was born, the two miscarriages from last year and my calling in life. Actually written down that doesn't seem much, but trust me when I say all of that is HUGE! The transformations and the freedom that has come for me in the past few weeks is amazing.

Our church retreat at the beautiful Camp Somerset, saw us hearing from an awesome speaker, Gary Barkalow. He spoke to us about our "Calling" in life. It has been a long time since I have sat and listened to a speaker and literally hung on almost every word. (No offense Dave, if you read this!) I wasn't going to go on this retreat due to finances and having to find a babysitter for two nights. However, the closer it got to the day the more something in my heart had me yearning to seriously know what my calling was and what is was that God would have me do with my life. I knew then that I really wanted to go and after enlisting my absolutely wonderful and amazing sister and brother in law to look after Ash for the weekend and Brad and I deciding that God would work out the finance side of things for us, I signed up to go.

To try and write all that went on that weekend both on the retreat and in my heart, just wouldn't make any sense to you, it's still only just making sense to me. From the many things that Gary talked about on the weekend I came away with two huge things. One was a quote from George Elliot, "It's never too late to be what you could have been." Even now that stirs something deep in me. The second was a story he told about a GPS and the times when you go off course and there is no condemning voice yelling at you or belittling you for going the wrong way, there is just a lovely calm voice telling you that it is "recalculating". I soooo love the thought that when we go astray or off course that our course can always be recalculated by God to get us to where we are supposed to go.

So where am I at? Hmmmm.... recalculating.